When banquets or other social gatherings take place in Noxus, Katarina is obliged to make an appearance there along with her family && close connections. She is often complimented by drunken fools and others who have an interest in ( o n l y ) her appearance, but even so she stays calm and thanks them before leaving their sight. This leads to an insecurity that she absolutely despises— her want of love and affection.
When growing up as the eldest daughter, Katarina was always the perfect young girl and had to be the model child. Though that was all she ever was, pretty and inspiring with a knack for blades. Her look was the only reason people took an interest in her and that made her feel so… unnecessary. Of course, with fiery red hair and a smirk planted on her cherry lips, who could ever resist? Sometimes it was on purpose and at times it wasn’t, but even so she just wanted wanted someone to like her for her true personality, not her attire nor natural beauty.
It ate away at her and every single time she dismissed it, because love could not be real. She was a dangerous assassin with the eyes of a killer— who could ever love that? No one could love a woman who had no trust && so she believes that if she ever did fall for someone, it would only cause trouble and heartbreak.